SIEANNEN BELL
Original Paintings by G. Mariani


Ash and Brine

it was the wind then
brash and salty
against my lips
kiss of ash and brine
the breeze blowing
my own cigarette
back to burn my fingers
the world around me
slept sun-dazed
and unaware
as I ran the sand
pounding myself
against a season
flushed with lust
and honeysuckle 

on the bayside
we sucked at
crab legs
and clams
still wet
from the sea 

at twilight
the carnival began
strobe lights against
the incoming fog
the twitter of
young female voices
a sing-song
steady scream
against
the backbeat
of frat boy
hip-hop 

I walked the beach
strutted out across
the rocks
it was the wind then
thick with salt
and stilted music
that wrapped my
thin skirt against
my legs and left
me reeling with
the heft of the
water as if it
were crushing me
as if my bones
were only so many
thin white shells
to be left shattered
along this beach
already littered
by trash and 
lingering human
footprints 

something
about the sea
makes me hungry
fills me with
a longing
and a physical ache 

in the night
I tossed and turned
against the currents
of my dreams
my hands caught
in my hair
my feet pressed
against the bedsheets
seeking purchase
in the unquiet dark 

these islands
remind me
of my birthplace
which is further south
and indescribably greener
but the water talks to me
and my gypsy heart
rocks closed against
the memory of rest
or contentment 

it was the wind then
murmuring a lullaby
in tones as gentle
as a knife entering
soft skin, overripe fruit
or the belly of a fish
shimmering with salt
and prismed scales 

it was the wind then

 

Blue Tattoo (Siren)

wandering into
the tug and pull
of lunar tides
I run with my
pockets full
of shale and
loose tobacco 

I am crumbling
and burning
throwing myself
in the singing sea
siren of my own song
that is only the raving
mutter of one lost girl
searching the shoreline
for gull feathers
and pale pink seashells
etched delicate
as fine glass
by the pressure
of a million
water-formed fingers
grinding back the sand 

the rhythm and throb
of the surf
is a blue tattoo
on my sunburned skin
I want to lay
under the waves
and be taken away
there is something
fragile in me
that is breaking
for the last time
the wind shattering
me open into
the wide expanse
of the sea

I braid seaweed
into salt-slick
bracelets
I bind myself
to the water
and feel my blood
rush wild
as the wave
that is about
to take me under